I've been fighting the urge to have a blow out on my weight loss journey lately. It's been a roller coaster ride that had ups (where I made decent choices or worked out and felt good about myself) and severe dips (where I jumped off the wagon and ate more than I should have or skipped a workout). Of course, those dips brought with them a new sense of guilt and feelings of failure.
As I got home on Friday, I told Alicia pretty plainly that I was tired of struggling with it for the moment and needed to reset. Then I laid out a plan for the weekend for food that essentially meant no plan at all! Yes, I was going to have that blow out. I was done fighting for now, so I let it go.
My last update told you that I had hit a magical number...that number represented a 30 pound loss. I was grateful to have continued to lose a few more pounds, but then I had my reset weekend.
I've heard that it's ok to have a cheat day or so every now and again, but 4.2 pounds worth probably isn't the intended measure. If you've ever stepped on the scale after a bad day or whatever, you know the feeling. The guilt washes over you and you realize that failure. You simmer in the soup of your defeat. It's a little worse now because I planned for the event to happen. I could have been better off if I had kept up the struggle. Thoughts like that are the after-effects of bad decision-making.
I'm excited though. I've had my fun and hopefully it's enough for the foreseeable future. As I am not strictly reducing calorie intake, or ditching carbs, or any other of the crazy diets out there, I'm not as worried about building up and giving into cravings. I simply have to be careful as I move forward in the future, just as I had been doing.
So here's to the after-effects of my after-effects. May the joy of next week's weight check erase all of the sadness of todays. Be blessed in your weight loss journey, as I hope I will be!
As I got home on Friday, I told Alicia pretty plainly that I was tired of struggling with it for the moment and needed to reset. Then I laid out a plan for the weekend for food that essentially meant no plan at all! Yes, I was going to have that blow out. I was done fighting for now, so I let it go.
My last update told you that I had hit a magical number...that number represented a 30 pound loss. I was grateful to have continued to lose a few more pounds, but then I had my reset weekend.
I've heard that it's ok to have a cheat day or so every now and again, but 4.2 pounds worth probably isn't the intended measure. If you've ever stepped on the scale after a bad day or whatever, you know the feeling. The guilt washes over you and you realize that failure. You simmer in the soup of your defeat. It's a little worse now because I planned for the event to happen. I could have been better off if I had kept up the struggle. Thoughts like that are the after-effects of bad decision-making.
I'm excited though. I've had my fun and hopefully it's enough for the foreseeable future. As I am not strictly reducing calorie intake, or ditching carbs, or any other of the crazy diets out there, I'm not as worried about building up and giving into cravings. I simply have to be careful as I move forward in the future, just as I had been doing.
So here's to the after-effects of my after-effects. May the joy of next week's weight check erase all of the sadness of todays. Be blessed in your weight loss journey, as I hope I will be!
