For some reason, I had decided that I must have done something right to be accepted by my future peers so high in the "draft" if you will. I knew I had a decent record in the last five years, but what I had forgotten was that all of that was due to others and my Lord, not me. Yes, yes, I put in the hard work and elbow grease, and I can say with honesty that there was a lot of hard work to put in. But God had directed this path for me, and no one else.
When something is going wrong in a person's life, we are often quick to quote Romans 8:28, usually we take it out of context. Here is the verse: "And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose."
In that verse, we comfort others with the assumption that it will all work out in the end. I would submit that we often mislead hurting people with this logic, but that is the matter for a different post.
James 4:6 tells us, "But he gives more grace. Therefore it says, “God opposes the proud, but gives grace to the humble.”
I don't like the sentiment of this verse. It proves an uneasy example for me.
The moment I put myself up on a pedestal for those around me to see; the moment I started using myself as a proud example as what a Sailor can achieve, without giving fair credit to God and those who helped me, is the moment I sealed my fate.
I was injured in July and it just wouldn't heal on its own. X-rays showed a tear in the scapholunate ligament in my right wrist. The arthroscopy would reveal an almost complete tear in the SL and another tear in a second ligament, requiring full surgery. I just got the pins out of my wrist (pictured in the X-ray photo above), but it is (as you can imagine), completely sore, stiff, and painful to move. After nine weeks in a cast, it will take months to get back in the action.
So today, I humbly accept and celebrate what should have been the greatest day of my career. Instead, it is an opportunity to admit my failings and to give credit to God for my pending promotion. And a warning...it is not a guarantee yet. My commissioning to CWO will be largely dependent on my ability to return to full duty.
As of now, the US Navy has delayed my commissioning until May of this year. I am grateful to God for this, and hope that it will always serve as a reminder to me to remain humble and understand always that it is God who has directed my path, not myself.