I was in training to become a pastor. The fact is that I thought I was called to become one. I would still accept that calling if it turned out to be true, but I believe I had misunderstood. I wanted to be a preacher. I wanted to influence people for the good of God’s purpose…but I also wanted to influence people for the good of God’s purpose. I know, I wrote that twice.
You see, I’m a very prideful man. In almost everything I do, I naturally look at angles to make me more important. That is, after all, what I want to be. I want to be heard. I want to be important.
Every time, God has to break me down a notch…or two…or a lot. My recent issue with orders to Virginia were part of this. I needed to rely on God only, something I’m no good at. The more I consider this as a reality, the more I realize that I am not fit to be “behind the pulpit.”
Yet God has led me very distinctly. Through my career in the Navy, I have often found myself as a guide. My best work, it would seem, has always been behind the scenes, helping people develop their sense of God’s calling for them. Most recently, a buddy of mine in the Navy applied for, and was accepted to, the chaplain program. Yet I was behind the scenes, and when his day to shine came, I got to watch from the audience. God taught me an important lesson that day…I am not meant to lead…I am meant to guide.
So I have re-focused my efforts on teaching. Currently, I’m 41 days away from starting Instructor Training (IT) School here in San Diego before transferring to Great Lakes to teach A-School. As an instructor, I will have a blessed opportunity to not only train, but to guide young sailors.
I don’t know what God has in store for me, but I’m excited to find out. I look forward to conducting some amazing research in the field of education while teaching in Great Lakes. I look forward to being more involved in my kids’ education as well. This is going to be an amazing ride!